self-worth

inspired by melonface
http://melonface.blogspot.com/2004/08/summers-resolutions.html

well, let's face it. most of us don't like ourselves. me, on the other hand, love myself. maybe too much. if loving me is wrong, i don't wanna be right. but even the strongest of personality can sometimes falter when faced with rejections and down-right meanness of people. this is when we need some help to find ourselves again, and learn to love ourselves again. i have been struggling a little in loving myself, so i have decided to take some steps to correct this situation. i knew to love myself as much as i used to, i had to spend more time with myself, and really get to know who i really am once again.

so, i started to spend more time with myself. i started to take moonlight strolls with myself, have a lovely candle light dinner and share a nice bottle of wine with myself, tried to get myself drunk and take advantage of myself... no ... wait, that is no good. you should never do that, and i did not do that. anyway, and one night i had a pillow fight with myself. i was so giddy... i just laughed and laughed... that was so much fun... and i finally began to break through that barrier that was keeping myself from loving myself.

just when i thought things were going so well, things started to change. i started to argue more often with myself. i started to distance myself from ... myself, i started to drink more and talk less. and one night, i found a lipstick on my shirt. oh my god, i have been cheating on myself! how could i have not seen this? it was so obvious and i was just lying to myself. I hate myself... i hope i never see myself again...