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i am an addict of laughter and also sadness. i guess basically i am very confused...

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

heaven of hell

these are moments that leave wounds in my soul, healing slowly, scars that disappear with time...

are they just small inconsequential events in life or are they paths to destiny and fate? my heart has felt many pains and anguish for all the moments that were, for moments that were not, and for the hearts that were closed, things that were done, and things that were said. yet, my heart still beats just as strong and my hope for tenderness, love, and belief in goodness of people still remains.

the crisp dewy morning air arouse in me feelings of gladness. one can become a victim of circumstances or victor because of circumstances. this path is not what i have chosen for myself, but i am at this moment, choosing to stop, look around, and appreciate the beauty that surrounds me because i have somehow ended up in this path.

there is destiny. no matter where i am, i know it is where i am suppose to be. not because i have chosen all the paths correctly, but because i am here. when i close my eyes and close my thoughts, i can feel it. there is no anguish, there is no regret, there is only comfort, peace, and love because that is who i am, and always have been.

if you were a flame, i would have allowed myself to be consumed completely. abandoning myself, my destiny, my hope for love, tenderness, and joy, in pursuit of your acceptance.

now that i take a step back, i see that my joy lies in pure hearts nurturing one another with love and tenderness, not in emotional battles that tear one another to pieces...


Blogger Memphis Steve said...

Three weeks later, yet I cannot tell, did she stay or did she go?

November 15, 2007 at 10:57 PM  
Blogger larrykim said...

she left... and i am glad she left, but i do miss her...

i think my blog is my closure.

November 16, 2007 at 7:55 AM  
Blogger itisthelittlethings said...

I have missed your writing, you elusive thing. Glad you're posting again. I so identify with your 'lost love' thoughts...

November 18, 2007 at 10:07 AM  
Blogger larrykim said...

little, i am glad you are here, and i guess i needed to let my thoughts out again. i just couldn't hold it in any longer.

November 19, 2007 at 9:09 AM  
Blogger Memphis Steve said...

I need to know, because I am blogging about Thanksgiving and meeting with Tony, if it is OK that I mention this or do I need to edit it? I don't want to say something that you don't want me to say.

November 27, 2007 at 2:41 PM  
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Anonymous Anonymous said...

Larry,Have you read Quran.I asked because you seem to be an educated person.Quran is the only divine book that is left intact in both original language and original text while gospel sadly lost both original langauge and original text.Sure enough Jesus never taught from this gospel written in English by Mathew Mark,Luke and John.Other divine books e.g.dasatir,and vedas are lost in only text somewhat.
Knowledge never hurts.
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February 12, 2011 at 11:01 AM  

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