rain falling on a sunny day

all the nurses and techs at the hospital loves mom. they will come visit her even when they are not assigned to her room. they come and give her hugs and kisses and tell her how much they love her.

my mom has been great. she still has positive attitude and there are always smiles and laughs to share. its really difficult for us to keep visitors away. we posted a sign that says "no visitor", but still they show up. i am so proud that i am a child of such a beautiful person.

she is getting very weak. couple of days ago, i thought she was not going to make it through the night, but she did. it seems like she has gained some strength after that, but she is still very weak and she is not able to get out of the bed.

one of the nurses asked us if there was something my mom is waiting on... because she has seen a lot of cancer patients and most of them at this point would have passed away.

i told her... yes, she is waiting on something. she is waiting to see her kids and grand kids one more day. she is waiting to smile her big smile one more day. she is waiting to laugh her laughter one more day...

spending all this time with my mom has offered me some peace in my heart. i know i will not spend long in sadness. i know that i will celebrate her life and also her after life. i think i am beginning to accept and be okay with her death for it is inevitable part of life...

she said... what we have here and now, aren't meant to be here forever...