happy happy joy joy

i am happy today. why? no reason at all... i just feel happy.

i think i have finally gotten over being sick. i haven't felt well in weeks. maybe my immune system needs some adjusting. i could also use a massage.

i think i may have obssessive compulsive disorder. there are several reasons i think this. one, i bite my nails. even though, now a days it is not severe and i am close to not doing it altogether. but, for the most of my life, i have been a serious nail-biter/skin-picker. two, i sometimes ruminate over an idea and just can't seem to let it go. most of the times, it is a negative thought. i try to steer myself away from such thoughts, but my mind just sometimes gets off on it's own. three, i tend to keep my house neat and it bothers me when things are out of place. this is not nearly as bad as it used to be. i guess because i have been depressed that i haven't really cared to keep my place neat, but when i am in a good mood, i tend to always clean and straighten things.

all this really makes me think that i am like a little child. maybe i will never grow up... but then, i guess i just need to be true to myself and keep myself happy...