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i am an addict of laughter and also sadness. i guess basically i am very confused...

Thursday, September 08, 2005

life for rent


i mowed mom's yard yesterday. i couldn't go inside the house. it felt like if i just walked in the house, mom would be sitting in her living room reading a book. it's still hard to believe that no one is home and she will never be in this house again. we still have all this food left over...

i need to make myself go over there and clean everything out one day... but i am afraid to... i am afraid to keep things because they make me think about her... and i am afriad to throw things away because i feel like they are small parts of her...

maybe i will wait till next month...

i am going to orange beach this weekend with tony, rachael, and brittny. we are drving out early tommorrow morning. i just came back from destin beach monday and i am leaving again...

i guess i am sad though i have no reason to be...

3 Comments:

Blogger Suzanne said...

Keep some special little things that remind you of her love for you and you for her...that is what she'd want you to keep. Give things away to those who may really need something she had, if you can...and that other family members don't have a problem with because she'll still be able to help others in some way even though she isn't here physically right now and I'll just bet that she sounds like someone who would love that!

I have old letters handwritten by mom, a rosary that she prayed with, a bowl that we used to stir up ingredients for cakes with together... you know..... Love ya, Larry...God bless you...

September 13, 2005 at 1:57 PM  
Blogger JustMe said...

Suzanne is right... and remember, she will always be in your heart. Give yourself time my friend....

September 13, 2005 at 3:26 PM  
Blogger ukok said...

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Perhaps it would be an idea to put everything in storage until you are feeling strong enough to deal with it. This is a painful enough time already.

God Bless.

September 19, 2005 at 3:04 PM  

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